*then*

okay, this is totally on a different topic.

sometimes, i wish that my two smaller brothers(alfian and iman) will not grow up and become older. every seconds, every minute, every hour, every day, every month and every year, they're becoming more and more older. from 7 years old to 9 then to 12 and soo on. when they're smaller, i used to kiss them, smack their butts, hug them, pinch their nipples, sleep with them and do many more disguisting and unimaginable things to them. but now as they're growing, i can no longer do those things to them. i can no longer pinch iman's nipples, kiss iman and alfian on their cheeks, smack their butts or even hug them. alfian who is now 12 years old will be in secondary one next year. he will go through teenager's life soon. i can't kiss him on his cheeks anymore. of course he'll be ashamed if i do that to him. now, when i kissed him, he will wipe it away. whatever, i dont care how this sounds like. i really really wish that my brothers will remain as children and stop growing at the age of 7. hahaha!